Day 52

No unexplainable cravings today. When did this become the highlight of my day? Wow, things have changed. Not to mention the fact that I don't feel that I can get clean enough. I wash and wash but still think I smell like sweat and my shoes smell awful. I'm thinking about getting another pair just to get rid of the smell. I have to use free and clear laundry detergent and its not cutting it with my clothes. I think I'm going to pick up some tide and wash my clothes in that and then rewash in the free and clear.

Day 51

I still want the skittles. I pushed myself extra hard this morning because I feel guilty for wanting them. I wonder if anyone else is having any cravings like this. I'm going to have to check with the other contestants to see what they would do.

Day 50

I am having this unexplainable craving for skittles today. I have no idea where this is coming from. Of course, I'm not going to eat them. One they are really bad for me being just processed sugar and two I am not going to wash away all of my work for a bag of deliciousness. I wonder why? I haven't had sugar cravings at all. I wonder if there is some sort of substitute that I can eat in the world of healthy.

Day 49

I stayed on the couch all day today. I shouldn't have but I did. Now I feel awful.

Day 48

Today was an off cardio day. I did make it to the gym to work out on my own. I feel like I've really accomplished something but I'm not sure I am.

Day 47

I'm back to feeling sick again this morning. I just can't seem to get over this. How am I supposed to push myself when my body just won't cooperate. I understand why people start using illegal substances to work out harder and feel better.

Disclaimer-I am not going to start using any illegal substances nor would I ever. I just understand what would move people towards them.

Day 46

Cardio was good this morning. I only felt like I wanted to pass out for 15 minutes after we were finished. I think Dani needs some sort of push award. Just when you think she is going to slack off and let you rest a little, she turns the energy right back up.

Day 45

I feel like I am letting Scott down. I am trying as hard as I can but I don't think I am getting any better or stronger. I wish there were tests that I could do at home to determine my progress.

Day 44

I'm still at my MLO training class but should be back tomorrow.

Day 43

I was at an MLO license training class in Houston this morning and missed my scheduled workout. I did walk on the treadmill at the hotel but their gym left a lot to be desired.

Day 42

Today was another off day for me. I'm glad that I can rest. I would like to say that I am going to try and walk around but I'm really just going to sit on the couch.

Day 41

I missed the group cardio this morning because I was in a meeting that I could not get out of. I hated missing it because I like seeing all of the other contestants. I can't wait until our next group.

Day 40

I think that Scott wants to push me over the edge. I hate the stairs just as much as he loves them. When do I get to stop doing stairs?

Day 39

Group cardio this morning took everything I had. I have no idea where Dani comes up with her ideas but she is really good at it. She knows just what to do to push us to the limit. I'm also glad that we have the chance to visit after the workout.

Day 38

This morning's workout went better than expected. I think I'm getting into a routine that I can work with. I think I can get used to this.

Day 37

I have no idea why I am so negative this week. All I can think about it the fact that I hated cardio this morning. What is going on? Why is this once again getting harder? It seems like it goes back and forth. Why?

Day 36

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Day 35

Yippee! Today's a free day. I didn't make it to the gym but I did work around the house. I know that cleaning should be considered as cardio. Its definately a work out.

Day 34

I made it to the gym for some extra cardio this morning. It harder coming on my own than working out with the trainers. I have to push myself and mentally block the urges to leave after 30 minutes. I still wanted to leave.

Day 33

I finally broke down and bought the new computer today. Maybe this will fix the blogging issue. I hope that everyone can read these again.

I made it to the gym twice today-this morning with Scott and this afternoon by myself. Working out twice a day is rough. I know I'm not weight training more than once but its still hard to do cardio in the afternoon after I've been with the torture king in the morning. Oh yes, that's right. Scott is now the torture king.

Day 32

I feel awful today. I went to the doctor this morning and we are running blood work. I hope it will be able to tell me why I keep getting sick each morning. This is making it really hard to go to the gym and I'm just not looking forward to working out right now. I want things to go back to the way they were a couple of weeks ago.

Day 31

I'm having a really bad day this morning. I did not want to get out of bed, much less go to the gym. I'm glad that I made myself do it but it was really hard. This cannot continue.

Day 30

I'm feeling sick again this morning and ended up throwing up after the workout. I'm going to schedule a doctor's appointment to see what is going on.

Day 29

This morning was great. I felt awesome after the workout. I was so full of energy. I hope this feeling lasts all day.

Day 28

Today was an off day. I laid on the couch and didn't make it to the gym. I'm glad that I was able to rest today.

Day 27

Today was group cardio at the park. We tried to play basketball. Bear said there really weren't any rules and we ended up playing some sort of twisted version of basketball/football. It was a bunch of fun and my team ended up winning.

Day 26

The torture king is back in full force thing morning. We worked out so hard that I can't even remember what we did. And by we, I really just mean me. Scott sometimes jumps in but its not until I think I cannot finish. He's so much better at this than I am.

Day 25

I'm not feeling well again this morning. I'm really going to have to shake this feeling. Its making it hard to work out each morning when I feel like I need to throw up. Maybe I need to go see the doctor to see what is going on.

Day 24

I'm feeling really yucky today. I think I worked out too hard. I'm still fighting this stupid computer and I think I am going to buy a new laptop. I've wanted another one since my old one was stolen. Maybe that will make me feel better.

Day 23

Dani likes to take us outside to do cardio. I'm not too sure that I like it. Its not a flat surface so I don't feel like I can really do my best. I hope we are inside from now on.

Day 22

Today's a new month. I can't believe that we are already 22 days into the contest. I'm starting to see a little weight loss. Its especially obvious in my shoulders. Why would I start losing weight there?